I moved in to a new place 4 months ago, a 34 sq. meter studio-type room with all the amenities available when I first moved in. The king-size bed, the cabinets, dresser, tv stand and header neatly built-in against the walls, the huge bathroom with an Asian-size bath and two big glass windows that leads to the balcony are included in the package. The balcony of my room that is on the 9th floor gives me not the best view in Bangkok but the chance of being up while towering the rest of the city is magnificiently overwhelming for me. I used to live in apartments which robbed me out the chance of being on top of the building shut off by rest of Bangkok. So indeed, my cousin called it an "apartelle".
My place, as I call it a haven is the only thing I feel so secure, which I can call my own. After I finished work, its the only place where I can shut the rest of the world out and just be simply me. Its the only place where I can find tranquility which school deprives me. Working with 23 kids everyday definitely drives me crazy so I am thankful that I found somewhere in the busy streets of Pattanakarn an apartment that looks rawdy from the outside yet welcoming and neat in the inside.
Its the only place I call home, where love is what I breathe in and out. A place where I can bring my friends and cousins in and have a good time. We can have a good time while sharing the view, laughing our heart out, talking about some good things and shit too, sharing a few bottles of booze on weekends or having a hearty home-cooked meals.
In my place, I can just be lazy. The place looks messy for many days but nobody cares coz I dont live with anyone. No room mate to always deal with, to keep up with or to fight with. I can clean it anytime I want, throw things where ever I want and leave it stinky for as long as I want ( not that I leave it smelly).
My haven is the place where I found my space; space from the people who seem to suffocate me, their nearness which I detest sometimes and their overfamilarity which looks strange to me.
I live alone but in my haven it is like a party for I live with me, myself, with space I love so much, serenity which I always long when I get to work. The TV with some English channels and cartoon channels in Thai give me company.
New Haven, New Life, New Year. I'm looking forward to a happier life in my newly found nest.
